I found this cute idea for secret decoder cookies here and decided to put a little Valentine's Day spin on it. And because I am generous and kind and V-day is about love, I also decided that I was going to give you the play by play of how exactly I made these fucking cookies.
First of all, I totally copped out on the cookies. I did not make them from scratch, using only all organic, non-GMO ingredients. I bought a fucking mix:
Why yes, there are two different types of mixes there. I read the box of the Great Value ones, saw that it made 40 servings at 2 cookies a serving, and figured I was golden. I forgot I used one of the packets for a trial run when I did that math. In my defense, this was also the same night I discovered lemon blueberry rum...
I whipped up some of those bad boys and prepared to Martha Stewart-ize them. Rolled them mothafuckers out, then cookie-cuttered their asses and prepared to fill them with the crushed cinnamon fire Jolly Ranchers I took a lot of my pent-up aggression about my daughters both suddenly deciding to go on a jag of forcing me to listen to only Katy Perry in the car on. I recognize that cinnamon candies might not be the best thing to put in cookies going to children, but goddamn. I'm not going for taste here. I used fucking store-bought cookie dough.
Filled with crushed candies. Crushed, similar to my hopes and dreams.
Now I had mentioned a trial run. I was not about to make all of these without attempting it first. If it was going to go down in flames (hopefully not the literal ones, but I swear that would be our luck...) I needed to come up with a backup plan. Obviously it had worked or I wouldn't even be telling you about this (though that might make for an entertaining post, fo' shure...). At any rate, I had already made up a little trial of the message these cookies would be used to decode. The blog I linked to above talks about using a blue pen to write the message, then covering it with squiggles of orange, red, and pink. Fuck that shit. Twenty five children plus one teacher in each kids class equals 52 Valentine's and I am not going to lie...the idea of handwriting all that shit makes me wanna stab my eyes out. I fully intended on printing that shit out on the computer, so that is what I did:
The hidden message.
The message decoded. Much easier to see in person, but it did work.
Holy fucking shit on a cracker, it worked again, bitchez. Some days I even impress myself.
This victory was short lived, however, as I soon came to the realization that the math that meant that I needed to go to the store for more mix is the same math that means I have to make 52 of these fuckers. Cutting those things out soon became a exercise in maintaining my sanity, and we all know that I teeter on the edge there frequently. Soon, however, I get the last few cut out and start to fill them up when I realize that I am going to be short crushed candy. "Fuck it", I thought. "I'll just toss in a whole one. It's not like I need that one cookie to make sure I have enough." (Note, however, that that same logic did not lead my to just, oh, I don't know, NOT PUTTING ANY CANDY IN. No, by God, ALL the cookies must have candy. ALL OF THEM.)
Poor little cookie, there in the upper right. Different from the others. You embrace your uniqueness, little buddy.
I popped that last bunch in the oven and started cleaning up. Timer goes off and I pull them out, and notice this:
Bottom right, this time, but look at how nice that fucking cookie looks.
That is right. All that time I spent crushing the candy that the children are not likely to eat, then painstakingly pouring it into each little hole...I could have just unwrapped the candy and tossed it in and been done with it. And this, bitchez, is why Pinterest is the devil. Not only is it a time suck, it totally leads you down the path to crushing candy when there is no need.
Next time, the only candy I am crushing is on my phone when I am trying to ignore my children while pooping. After that I was pretty Martha-Stewart'ed out, so I grabbed some lemon blueberry rum, resisted the temptation to just toss back a few shots, mixed it with a glass of lemonade, and remembered a time when my Saturday afternoons were not spent covered in flour to make cookies that children probably won't eat on a holiday I really don't even celebrate.